fortunately, my script has been written by God and not orchestrated by liz gateley. (no offense liz, total fan of laguna, but it's since gotten a little out of hand.)
today has been interesting of sorts. i am not a morning person. i arrived at the airport around 6:30 a.m. and had pleasant interactions with the spirit air people and the TSA agents :) i loved people watching; seeing an asian-american family with 4 kids, including a pair of twin boys, depart on their adventure to denver; another family, with the boys dressed in solid-color matching long-john sets and crocs; observing jersey shore look-alikes drinking beer at 8 a.m. before catching the first leg of their journey to spring break in cancun.
airports are so interesting to me; the coming, the going. the sad, the excited, the bored. they serve as a hinge of limbo, where everyone waits for someone or to finally be off to somewhere. where you hurry-up-and-wait, to get on a plane, to hurry-up-and-wait again.
and there's that moment, just before the wheels lift off the tarmac, where you think of how ephemeral life truly is, and the fact that yours is going about 500 miles an hour and lies in the hands of a pilot that may or may not have had enough sleep this week-- well, for those 5-7 seconds, i am afraid of flying. i admit it. counting connections, i've had to have flown near a hundred times. and truly, it is the safest way to travel. 43,000 people a year are involved in fatal car accidents, compared to the 500-1000 plane fatalities per the billions of flights flown per year. so my odds are pretty good when flying. and why do i only fear take off? who knows if the wing could rip off mid-air, or the engine suck down a seagull, or lightning, or-- you get the point. point is, were not invincible, and flying reminds me of that.
next point: we're made for community. and fellowship. and not for spending the day, and night, alone in a hotel room in which you have limited access to the world, and inadvertently booked a room with two double beds (no wonder mr. accent man at the desk doubly-inquired how many guests were with me). i've since done my bible study, facebook-stalked, watched this week's episode of grey's anatomy, and now, have keyed away this pointless blog.
i'm excited, ready, nervous. i'm tired, lonely, and not ready to leave my life and the people i care about behind here.
i am about to embark on a really insane journey. i don't think the reality of it has hit me yet. i will undoubtedly face some of the lowest-of-low's, and hopefully some of the highest-highs i've yet to see. there's no way i could be ready to face this alone. so thank you, for your support. and i am beyond blessed to know that the Lord has only asked me to go, and promised that He will be with me, the whole way through.
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please be praying for my transition and acclimation time. also, i got an email from PayPal because I have been using their self-generated "donate" button for my donations. unbeknownst to me, you have to be an NPO to use that button, so they have requested that i send in information from YWAM/Liberty Academy giving me clearance to fundraise on their behalf. pray that this issue is resolved quickly and without further complication. i know that any great task like the one i am taking on in God's name doesn't go without hurdles to try to slow you down and discourage you. for now, if you wish to contribute, please send checks to my mailing address and not to the paypal account. the funds will be released to me once i get all the documentation sent in, but i just got the email from them today, so it may take a week or so to get things figured out on the ground in haiti. thank you all for your loving and generous support. i can't believe this. it is here. God is so good, and so faithful!
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(just a note from my Bible study that i wanted to share)
Christians are a spiritual city set on a hill. We are called to be the light of the world so that God can reveal the radiance of His glory through our lives. Yes, feel the weighty responsibility of it, but also feel the privilege. Christ is not ashamed of us (Hebrews 2:11). What honor! What relief!
i want my decision to go and position to be viewed as such. i want it to be a testament to my beliefs in my faith, in my purpose, in honoring both how i was created and my Creator. that's a pretty scary things. as humans, we have a tendency to mess it up more than we get it right. but fortunately for our sake, Galatians 2:19-20 assures us that Christ is within us; that our fleshly life has been recommitted to a faith in the Son of God who loves us. that, too, is a reality we too often fail to recognize. praying I'm reminded of that often in my journey.
my thoughts and prayers and love is with you all
bon voyage
xoxo
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